silver lining is in sight
As my friends and regulars will know from my previous outpourings, my father died last year, my mother has become quite senile, had a fall, breaking her hip this January, lay in hospital and was discharged back to the retirement complex in a helpless state.
After months of exhaustion from doing her shopping, organising day care, night nurses as well as weekend relief nursing staff, which all cost a bomb and never really worked out since public transport made their arrival times a hit and miss affair and I'd often get panic calls about 'no-shows', I made the hard decision to move my mum to a frail care facility.
She is now there - this being her first month - and installed in a TINY room. I have had the depressing task of sorting through all my parents' stuff and clearing their little flat... has to be done by tonight and keys handed over.
Two different auction companies have come to load up furniture, personal belongings and things that may or may not be of value. I have donated truck-loads of still good clothing to an animal shelter and a hospice caring for the terminally ill.
I am knee-deep in the dust and grime of it all and EXHAUSTED. Worst of all is going through boxes of fading photographs of people I cannot identify and now nobody is alive to tell me who there were.
There are no words to describe my desire to be done with it all, draw a line under this sad chapter and get past it. THEN I shall wander off, camera in hand, to take some new photographs...
If you click on Scaredycat above, it will take you to my flickr pix that I update occasionally [link]
Lots of love to you all - keep producing wonderful work; it cheers me up
and bear with me if I am tardy in replying to comments and thanking you for
s. Believe me, I appreciate them all, I just sometimes get that snowed-under feeling...